It always fascinates me how easily motivation can shift. Now there have been a lot of changes over August, and I don't want to belittle that. However, I can't help but notice a major shift in confidence and clarity since being in Vancouver to now. A month ago I was about to embark on an epic road trip and my goal was clear; move back to Ontario so I can follow my dream of being an entrepreneur. Now, successfully moved and unpacked, I find myself a bit disoriented and very distracted. No doubt, I've been taking advantage of a summer off work, but the reality is now setting in that I have put myself in the position of having to do what I said I was going to do...So as the Summer cools down and we prepare ourselves for Fall, I now enter the hard part - the follow through.
It's obvious that adventure excites me, so I was stoked to road trip across the country heading out West (which was amazing btw!). But life is all about highs and lows so no surprise there when I felt a bit of a come down after I packed up and left Vancouver with all my belongings and headed East bound. Prior to leaving BC, the unknown of what's to come post-move was overwhelming mostly, but at times I felt inspired and excited to start this new adventure.
Why is it that when we give ourselves time and space, we often fill it with doubt, guilt, and fear. I've definitely filled a lot of my time freedom these past few weeks with distraction. Indulging in my new relationship and attending all the social gatherings. Telling myself I'd do the things I "need" to do, soon. After a few weeks of procrastination, that word changed to "should" and that space I created for freedom was filled with guilt that I should be doing something like getting a job or hosting yoga classes. Our minds are powerful, and it does not surprise me these thoughts come up when I am not practicing the tools that help me to manage these thoughts; such as yoga, meditation, gratitude.
Now that I've come to the awareness that this space has been temporarily occupied by thoughts that do not serve me, I am beginning to fill it with things that will help me reach my goals. I remind myself it doesn't have to be this great and powerful gesture. I often feel like it needs to be, and that is usually met with intimidation and fear. So instead, I set a micro goal - something very easy to follow and that doesn't allow any room for extra effort so I know I can easily do it every day.
I've always been fairly impulsive, so when I want to do something grand and I don't, it feels like I'm disappointing myself. But I know if I want to have long term success, it's not just a one and done situation. I want to build my brand on a foundation that is solid, because I have too many ideas that if I was to start working on all of them, there is no way I could manage them all at the same time. So follow through is now what I'm working on - one thing, slow and steady.
I took the leap of faith to get myself to where I need to be in order to start this next chapter. I am still so excited to be one step closer in making my dreams a reality and I hope you will all join me in this next adventure.
xo Maddie