No matter how much we try to predict what is coming, what our next step will lead to, or how we picture things turning out for our future, near or far, it never holds true to our expectations.
Yet time after time, we keep predicting, continue convincing ourselves of what will happen next.
Now this prediction is not the issue, it is human nature to look forward to what is to come and build excitement around the possibilities that our choices lead to. The issue is when we make a decision about our future that is not in our control and then struggle deeply with changing our expectations as things shift. Letting go of what we thought would be to allow room for what is.
However, we are in control of our decisions and are in a continuous state of making choices but we are not in control of universal timing and additional external factors. Often this brings up some very real frustration. You may find yourself say things like 'Why is this happening to me?', 'Why now?', 'Why can't this just work out?'. Asking questions that have no answer.
Setting out my new beginning to leave Vancouver has been a journey to say the least, and a longer one then I could have even imagined. The expectation I had for myself upon settling back into my home town turned out to not be what I had thought - maybe it was unrealistic, maybe it was just not meant to be or perhaps I decided not to pursue it.
Now that I have been working on letting go of some of these expectations, I now land on feeling present but without direction. Trying to find the happy medium of being open to possible future outcomes but carrying a goal in mind.
I can't predict my future; I can only keep a big picture in mind and my heart of what kind of lifestyle I want to live. I'll keep asking myself for clarity and use the tools I've learned to help me stay connected with Self. Knowing that there is growth in the stillness, I'll keep my head up and heart open.
xo Maddie